06 June 2009
Chapter 56 - HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZX!
YAY!
I actually remembered!
Totally forgot about yp's though she told me a few days before.
Ohs and we should really get a 6A gathering.
Went to Mal's school for the funfair.
Didn't stay long.
Almost melted.
Project tomorrow.
ShiHui just called.
And she sounds so cute.
Oh and I totally agree on what YingShuang said bout guys.
P.SI think you should give up,Cuz it's not going to happen.
What's real? What's not?
10:26:00 PM
28 May 2009
Chapter 55 - Night Out.
Happy Birthday Ace!
And thanks for the dinner.
With several others too:
(If I get their names and spelling correctly)
Angeline (not so sure bout this one)
Yan Fu
Yu Jie
Yeah, I'm doubtful about anything with the word Angel in it.
I have this feeling that I am imagining things.
But guess it should be correct... I hope?
Dinner at PizzaHut.
Stared at Ace while he's eating the drumlets.
Funny.
Then went to his house for the cake smashing thingy.
Cruel! Never did anything like this before.
The most we've ever done was putting cream of somebody's face with FINGERS.
Not smash his whole face into cake.
Haha sorry Ace.
Really funny and nice people,
As compared to my school's.
Well, at least I don't get left out.
And for a moment, I felt visible again.
Yeah, most of the time I'm as good as invisible.
Not that I don't like it that way or what.
Just that it can be tough at times to convince myself
That I'm an outsider, so DON'T COMPLAIN.
Ohs and they are definitely so much more mature.
Treating to movies, caring for friends and sending girls home
Are not what the boys in my school do.
You'll be lucky if he doesn't ask you to send HIM home.
But I still prefer to pay myself.
Feels so guilty.
Learn a lot from them too.
Like which JC to go, how to score and whatsoever.
They are seniors afterall.
Ohs and the downfall of Venice.
I was thinking of droppin' that topic.
Now, I think its easy. Gosh.
Ohs ohs ohs! And met up with YingYing.
Happy!!! Haven't talk to her for THAT long for a very long time.
And people are telling and asking me weird things nowadays.
Like Benjamin and Celine kept asking
If anyone ever asked for my hp no. or what if somebody likes me.
I'm like hell, that could never happen.
Not as if I'm Shermaine or whoever.
Not a pretty person.
And some guy in friendster actually find me cool.
That's what YingYing said just now too.
"Hazel, you are becoming cooler."
It's just weeeeeeiiiiiiirrrrrrrrrrrdddddddd kind of weird.
Or is it another hallucination?
I look like a freak (and you people know that) and I'm sensing weird stuff lately.
(You know, like hearing and smelling things kind of stuff?)
That will make sense.
Anyway, my point is I MET YINGYING!
WOOTS!
What's real? What's not?
10:17:00 PM
25 May 2009
Chapter 54 - Examinations Again.
Beware: Long Post Below.Oh god, really really really feel like shutting this blog down until further notice.
Life's all bout exams, results, disappointment and before I can recover,
It's exam again.Yeps, mock exams have started.
English paper was this afternoon.
Mr Osgodby said it's the easiest paper he has seen in this 24 years.
Gosh, it's the easiest and I can't do most of the questions.
Including the composition.
It's like the
worst I've ever done.
Extremely no idea what I was writing.
Descriptions and thoughts one full page.
Climax and conclusion
2 paragraphs.
I know.
I'm lucky if I get 10 and above.
I'm very very lucky if I score better than BingCai (Paper 1 + 2).
Report writing?
I only did the comparing part.
I think that's what most of us did. (At least I hoped so.)
Even BingCai can't do it.
Think he'll get a better score than I do though.
All of a sudden, my stress level increased.
(Which is a good thing cuz it keeps me going)
It haven't hit the maximum yet.
Hope it will soon. Like
REAL soon.
If not nothing drives me to getting the 6A1s I need.
I'll probably get more than 20 for this mock exam.
Please Please Please 6A1s for prelim...
Aiming for SAJC~
After one big round, I'm back to aiming for SAJC again...
Ohs have I mentioned that I'm badly shaken by the exam?
But its ok. I need that push.
Kind of blanked out on my way home.
Thought I heard BingCai laughing behind.
Yeps, I'm
hallucinating.
Cuz he was in front.
Well, saw him in front of me at the MRT station,
So he couldn't have been behind, right?
Whoever it is sounds like him though.
And I can't believe he actually told me something when I didn't ask.He probably see that I'm going to break into tears any second Or he is in an extraordinarily good mood.
Either, I'm surprised.He is always biased against me.Unusual.
Always happen when I'm down.
Thought I heard JiaShun that time.
He said he didn't call me.
Was thinkin could it be ____ then?
It wasn't.
But still saw ____ on my way home though.
It's like somebody is trying to tell me,
"You're not alone..."
Hmm, sometimes it may be a little creepy.
(To others. I'm kinda used to sensing weird stuff.)
But then it's good to see a good friend when everything is not going well.
P.S Celine and Benjamin has been asking me very weird questions lately. Wonders what are they up to.
What's real? What's not?
6:25:00 PM
14 May 2009
Chapter 53 - Serious Mistakes.
I should really be studying Biology right now.
Have been dazing in class.
Ready to fail.
Alrights.
Finally able to finish most papers.
Improvement?
Thought that my results will be slightly better if I can complete the tests.
Yes, its slightly better.
But I made stupid careless mistakes all over.
Chinese 10+% gone.
Same for Chemistry.
Could have got an A for both.
I need accuracy...
And speed.
Both.
DAMN! Bing already has 1 A1 and I have none.
And I think he's gonna get 2 more A s from the math(s)
Probably 3 if he scores well for chemistry.
And I think he will.
Just don't let my results be too far from his.
Ahh forget about Alfred's,
I'm nowhere near.
Argh it feels like some monologue.
Summary:
Results sucks. Could have done better. Unsatisfied.
Canteen sucks. Went to LJS for lunch with A and B. And B hates me.
By the way, I think the lyrics for
this song is nice:
黯淡的招牌 我低头 迎面而来
街上的灵魂 全部可以买卖
愚蠢的以为 什么 自己最爱
那些欲望 我静静的主宰
*对魔鬼乞讨 虚荣的骄傲
黑色的契约 像月光下的暗潮
我冰冷地抚摸着你 的悲哀
只是交换 没有爱
漆黑的窗外 说不出的阴霾
墙上的影子 单纯已经不在
脸上的表情 残酷没有期待
狂风掠过 我跟你谁才腐败
REPEAT *
P.S
Please say I will get another A and didn't fail my math(s)
Please say I will find the paper easy tomorrow.
Please say I can be fast and accurate.
What's real? What's not?
4:59:00 PM
07 May 2009
Chapter 52 - The Boring Stuff.
Let's see few subjects down.
Got back Social.S few days ago.
Well, it was not as good as my usual performance,
But then better than what I've expected.
I thought I'll probably get 11? (Didn't complete AGAIN.)
Turn out to be slightly better.
But argh, no more A1 or prolly A2 for combined humanities.
Hey, miraculously, I complete my Physics paper and Geography paper!
And its the first time I didn't leave any blanks for Physics.
Hope that I can finish the Literature paper tomorrow as well.
Doubt so though.
Haven't done well in Lit since... like forever?
It's exam period and I am having sooo much fun.
Gosh.
Their fault.
But I am trying hard to catch up with their almost-god-like results.
Trying~
Right, why am I slacking again?
Ok off to write Rika's yearbook and then to F451.
Heard that Development of Montag's gonna be out.
And teacher told P2 instead of our class?
People around me are just so bias.
What's real? What's not?
6:57:00 PM